Gone To Seed...
SEPTEMBER 5, 2008
Where has the time gone
since I last stepped into Bloglandia???
Change is in the air...
and despite the heat I can feel Fall coming
and find our meadow going to seed...
Many flowers fading and faded...
yet... blossoms still abound for birds and critters...
who search for new homes... just waiting to be discovered...
I look to the sky...
and I look to the ground... and find the path
opening through this new dryness...
Where pods burst with seeds of life...
fat and round and juicy...
thin and dry...
spreading wishes for spring...
This going to seed and letting go mirrors my own life... Turning fifty and slipping into menopause... looking in the mirror and not recognizing who looks back at me... moods and emotions that are both the tides of the sea and the heights of mountains... my body changing daily... I am stepping into this new labyrinth, path unknown to me... I am stepping into this next phase of my life and when I breath into the anxiety... I am excited... I take the steps and the turns I need to help me recognize myself... the loss of words do not frighten me, as they did in the past... I trust the space, the need for silence, the awkwardness that makes me feel like an adolescent in an aging body, waking for the first time to the years that have flown by... I am going to seed and it is miraculous... This great emptiness growing in me is filled with all possibility and I dance and dream the twists and turns that are my life...